Leaving Harbour

(final paragraph of)
Introduction: twenty years on, from "The Outsider; the classic study of alienation, creativity and the modern mind"

And how do I feel about The Outsider in retrospect? In order to answer that question I settled down the other day to re-read it and found it impossible to gain a sense of perspective. It still prodcues in me the same feeling of excitement and impatience that I experienced as I sketched the outline plan on that Christmas Day of 1954. Why impatience? Because it aroused some enormous anticipation. At the time, I mistook this for anticipation of success (for somehow, I never had the slightest doubt that it would be a success). Now, I recognize it for what it was: the realization that I had at last settled down to the serious business of living: that after the long-drawn-out and messy years of childhood, and the teenage agonies of self-conciousness, I had at least ceased to waste my time; I was starting to do what I was always intended to do. There was a feeling like leaving harbour. It made no difference that the critics later tried to take back what they'd said about the book. They couldn't take back the passport they'd given me.

-Colin Wilson

Portraits

My last week of photos

Rita:






Kostia:






Judah:

Queen of Hoxton

My Saturday night at a club in East London. After giving my card and exchanging information with an especially lively woman on the tube a few weeks back she asked me to come down and take photos of a few acts... this is what came of it.

a bit of life

Wanting to add more but my photo editing program is being difficult so for now it's just these. The first two are from last week. I had taken on the task of instructing the class how to use a 4x5 camera and the following day a group of us took a camera out and experimented with shooting one another and loading film while using a changing bag (a lightproof bag that allows you to move film safely from it's packaging to the dark slide where it get's exposed in the camera without being damaged but is hilarious because it only lets you use your hands and fumble around with half your senses working). The last shot is just a quiet moment that i felt like posting.

Faces in the city

There are always more photos.

Staying busy. Loving school and missing all you wonderful people.

xo Lo